End It
“End It is about the effect my childhood had on my mental health and how as a child, I didn’t think I could handle it.”
"End It" explores how my childhood affected my mental health, especially the suicidal thoughts I struggled with during that time. It’s written from the perspective of still being in that dark place, even though it's been many years since I felt that way. The song is raw and uncomfortably honest, which makes it hard to sing sometimes. Unlike some of my other songs, it doesn't approach the topic with anger—just pure sadness and desperation. It tells the story of feeling like there are no options left, and it's meant for those who have been in a similar place to feel understood. Writing it was cathartic, allowing me to be vulnerable about a painful part of my past. If you or someone you know needs help, please reach out to a hotline or mental health professional.
About the song
Lyrics
Sitting, looking up from the bottom
Wishing I had their pretty problems
I try to give a smile but I got none
I got none, got none
Hope my eyes don’t open after I lay down to sleep
Praying to a god that has never shown up for me
Another day of play pretend, I’m stumbling, ah
I toss and turn, on red alert, I watch it burn
They tell me I should end it
Evil whispers in my mi-i-ind
Promising a paradi-i-ise
Away from all the sounds
Six feet underground
I’m falling for their lies so
Promising me peace of mind
Maybe I should
Take me to a paradise
Maybe I should
Promising me peace of mind
Maybe I should, Maybe I should
Maybe I should end it
I can bare my teeth when I need to
Over time I learned not to need you, I
I hate that in me I can see you
Don’t wanna see you, see you, I’m
I'm carving you out of my veins to save a part of me
Cursing out a god that I now know to not believe
Another day of play pretend, I’m stumblin, Ah
I toss and turn, on red alert, I watch it burn
They tell me I should end it
Evil whispers in my mi-i-ind
Promising a paradi-i-ise
Away from all the sounds
Six feet underground
I’m falling for their lies so
Promising me peace of mind
Maybe I should
Take me to a paradise
Maybe I should
Promising me peace of mind
Maybe I should, Maybe I should
Maybe I should end it
Now I lay me down, lay me down to sleep
I pray to thee, pray my soul to keep
If I should die, die before I wake
I pray to thee, pray my soul to take
Now I lay me down, lay me down to sleep
I pray to thee, pray my soul to keep
If I should live, live another day
My demons say
Maybe I should end it
Evil whispers in my mi-i-ind
Promising a paradi-i-ise
Away, from all the sounds
Six feet underground
I’m falling for their lies so
Promising me peace of mind
Maybe I should
Take me to a paradise
Maybe I should
Promising me peace of mind
Maybe I should, Maybe I should
Maybe I should end it
