Poison
“Poison is about the aftermath a relationship with a narcissist, where you became a poisoned version of yourself that you barely recognize.”
Poison came from a place of anger and resentment towards a narcissist. A quote I love that fits this song is "Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die" - Malachy McCourt. After being in a relationship with a narcissist you become this half-dead poisoned version of yourself that you barely recognise. Poison embodies that and how the other person changed you. It's about this worse version of you that has to exist in order to survive them, and realising that staying is killing you and turning you into somebody you never wanted to be.
About the song
Lyrics
I was loyal, thick or thin
Ride or die, didn’t live through it
Wish you knew when you had it
Before we got this damaged, mm na
I’ve grown bitter I’ll admit
Resent your careless entitlement
Hate that I kept running back
When all I got was empty promises
Cause every time you breathe me in like oxygen
Then spit me out like I’m pure poison
You break my will and I give in this one last time
Cause all the things you take for granted
I’m holding hostage in my mind
The next time you breathe me in like oxygen
All you’ll find is poison
It’s all too much, can’t justify
How you feel power at my demise
Proudly wearing your fake indifference
Every word is twisted, mm na
I said it once, I’ll say it again
You’re angry, you’re selfish, you’re arrogant
And you’ll paint me as the villain
Cause you can’t take responsibility
Cause every time you breathe me in like oxygen
Then spit me out like I’m pure poison
You break my will and I give in this one last time
Cause all the things you take for granted
I’m holding hostage in my mind
The next time you breathe me in like oxygen
All you’ll find
If I’m going down, you’re coming down too
I won’t be the victim, I won’t play the fool
If I’m going down, you’re coming down too
I’d rather be a bitch than be used by you
If I’m going down, you’re coming down too
I won’t be the victim, I won’t play the fool
If I’m going down, you’re coming down too
God I just can’t wait until that fatal day
You breathe me in like oxygen
Then spit me out like I’m pure poison
You break my will and I give in this one last time
Cause all the things you take for granted
I’m holding hostage in my mind
The next time you breathe me in like oxygen
All you’ll find is poison
